Vicky Pattison says she fell for ‘broken men’ after watching her parents’ troubled relationship in her childhood.
And Vicky, 34, says she previously ended up in toxic relationships after watching her mother Caroll ‘fighting to make it work’ with John while she hid his ‘shortcomings from everyone else, no matter how hard things were for her’.
Trouble in love: Vicky Pattison, 34, says she fell for ‘broken men’ after watching her parents’ troubled relationship in her childhood
In her new book The Secret to Happy, serialised in The Sun, Vicky wrote: ‘We accept the love we think we deserve. That is what I truly believe when it comes to romantic relationships. Beyond that, you accept the love you’ve observed at home, as a child.
‘I knew as a child that something was wrong, and I watched my mam give every inch of herself to a man who was not getting better.
‘I just watched as that relationship constantly took from her and drained her . . . that’s what I thought love was.’
Tough childhood: The former Geordie Shore star’s father John battled alcohol addiction in her younger years, receiving treatment in hospital, rehab and from support meetings
She added: ‘Subsequently — and this isn’t something I did consciously — my pattern became that I fell for broken men. Almost every time.’
Vicky has been happily involved with former TOWIE cast member Ercan Ramadan since 2019, and the couple recently moved into a lavish £1.5million Essex home.
The one-time I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here! winner previously attempted to seek out men who she deemed equally as successful as her but she praised Ercan for still finding his way in life while being secure within himself.
Learned behaviour: Vicky who has been with Ercan Ramadan since 2019, says she previously ended up in toxic relationships after watching her parents union
Vicky says she is able to enjoy her relationship with Ercan after undergoing therapy and embracing both her good and bad qualities.
But she hasn’t always been so lucky with men in the past – she had a rocky on-screen romance with Ricci Guarnaccio during her time on MTV show Geordie Shore before she went on to date ice hockey player James Morgan, who was later arrested for robbery.
She was also linked to former The Only Way Is Essex star Kirk Norcross and Ex On The Beach star Stephen Bear, who she described as ‘vile, horrendous’ and ‘conniving’ after she found him to be unfaithful.
In the past: Vicky had a rocky on-screen romance with Ricci Guarnaccio during her time on MTV show Geordie Shore (pictured 2012)
Bad boy? She went on to date ice hockey player James Morgan, who was later arrested for robbery (pictured 2014)
Her engagement to John Noble broke down when she discovered he he had been getting close to other women in Dubai.
Vicky says she was drawn to the wrong men, who she was never able to ‘fix’, with the unions just leaving her ‘broken’.
‘I wanted to be loved so much that I repeatedly fell too hard and too fast for the wrong people,’ she said.
Blast from the past: She was also linked to former The Only Way Is Essex star Kirk Norcross
Unimpressed: Vicky described Ex On The Beach star Stephen Bear as ‘vile, horrendous’ and ‘conniving’ after she found him to be unfaithful (pictured 2015)
However, Vicky found love with Ercan in 2019 just months after her split from John Noble and they have been together ever since.
And the screen star has a much more positive approach to her relationships today, insisting love ‘shouldn’t hurt’ and partners should be ‘equals’.
Meanwhile, Vicky insists she regrets sleeping with ex Ricci on Geordie Shore, claiming she was broken down after his constant demands.
End of the road: Her engagement to John Noble broke down when she discovered he he had been getting close to other women in Dubai (pictured 2018)
But, today, she believes sex is a ‘privilege’ and something that should be ‘incredibly special’ between two people.
Vicky’s comments come after she revealed she was downing 10 drinks a day after her I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here! win in 2015 and that she ‘hated herself’.
She has spoke candidly about her complicated relationship with alcohol and says she turned to therapy to help her cope.
Difficult: Vicky recently revealed she was downing 10 drinks a day after her I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here! win in 2015 and ‘hated herself’
Vicky added that she is ‘determined’ not to end up in the same situation as her father John who has his own alcohol-related issues.
She told The Sun: ‘I had everything I ever wanted. The public liked us, I’d left behind Geordie Shore and I had this new shiny career.
‘But I was convinced that people would realise I wasn’t anything special and it would all be taken away and I was turning up late for jobs. I don’t think I ever turned up drunk, I always slept, but I was not in a fit state to work.
Honest: She has spoken candidly about her complicated relationship with alcohol and says she turned to therapy to help her cope
‘When you’re doing talk shows you want to be witty and warm, bright-eyed and bushy-tailed, not still shaking off the lethargy of five gin and tonics.
‘I hated myself back then. I work very hard to not become that person.’
She added that she started to become ‘unprofessional in her work’ and began to ‘jeopardise everything she’d ever wanted’ due to the drinking making her ‘sloppy and aggressive’.
Vicky went on to explain that her management sat her down and asked her why she was so unhappy, at which point she started going to therapy.
Love: Vicky, who has been dating Ercan for three years, recently moved into a lavish £1.5million Essex home with her man
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